I just found out from emergency room visit - Pancreatitis?

I've been separated for over a year from husband, he was recently laid off lost insurance coverage. I have outstanding bill with doctor so he refuses to see me, the emergency room runs the same tests and says go see your doctor- So, what I am asking; Does anyone know of Care Treatment facilities that may treat me? I want to go to work! I think I've been given a death sentence with no hope. I've also been dating a guy (I've had a crush on for 28yrs-Iwas15 the first time I saw his beautiful green eyes-and perfectly chiseled face-but never told anyone until this past November when we crossed paths again-as we have thru the yrs-and he turned around to give me a very warm firm hug and invited me to dinner with his friends-he doesn't want to believe I am...ill and his people are telling him to drop me because there is "something" wrong with her. I feel like he should too-I have nothing to offer him but pain and misery and loss eventually death in my heart I believe he loves me and would do anything he could to help IF there IS any help out there) I have three children 22,11,8-&5yr old granddaughter, that I have been in so much pain and NO energy But my mind says GO!!! so much to say and so many questions-I have looked up pancrepancreatic I've seen some surgical precedures and have heard one doctor say if they get to it too late the surguries will not prolong life expectancy-only removal of the painful dead cells that block the ducts that secrete the enzymes, but with no car,job, money, insurance All I have is God. and I've been a terrible Christian, making promises with all good intent and falling short every time one thing or another I do not deserve a miraculous healing from God but I do need One (or about a million little miracles) to pull something together so my son can have a chance at life-he is mamas' "BOY" he loves his mom and wants to go with me when I go-He can play piano, drums, guitar and praises God-Loves Jesus but the friends he has do not go to church my estranged husband refused to pray with me or surrender his lustful greed (I"LL just stop there) he was not a positive influence for either of us, I have regrets I got away last year-because I wanted to take one more chance at having a good life and pursue happiness less hatred around me more happy -doesn't look like that is going to happen. How can I find out if anyone has an insurance policy on me? I am curious as to how from sept to now I am in so much pain-agony words cannot describe-I am sorry I am not practiced at the art of short n sweet and keep emotion out of it-I have no clue where to turn, the hospital told me to see my doctor, the doctor wants his money (I don't blame him I just need to get to work so I can pay him